Hello
to everyone who may, or may not, be reading this. My name is Minuette
and I am starting a blog - though you all can quite clearly see that!
There
may be many reasons for doing this, but, at the moment, they are all
jumbled up in my head. I guess that is one of them. I sometimes feel as
though all my thoughts are crammed inside my head and I just want to
spill them out onto a page so that I can see them in front of me and so I
can sort them out. This means that there will probably tons of boring
rubbish on this page that no-one will ever read, but I hope that anyone
who does read it will do their best to try to relate to me and try to
understand what is going through my head. It also means that in several
years time if/when I look back at this, I will think myself a total
idiot and will wonder why I ever decided to write a blog in the first
place.
Some
people may be wondering why, if I wanted to write my feelings out, I
didn't just start a diary. Well, my answer to that would be that I want
people to able to read what I am thinking without actually knowing me.
Hence the reason why no images of me will be posted here (not any time soon) and my blog name is not my real name. This way I feel that I can get into contact with people that
don't know me without feeling like I am constantly being judged.
I
find that one of the problems with me spilling my feelings to people
that I see on a regular basis is that I can't tell what they are
thinking. I have no idea whether they are sympathetic to me, feel sorry
for me, think I'm a total idiot, or if they totally understand and feel
the same way all the time, this means that if they do think I'm really
weird, being around them is cinda awkward. This is often a problem as
I'm a pretty self conscious person. Then there is the fact that everyone
my age always seems to look better than me - all the time. I always
feel that I am over-dressed or under-dressed. And on-top of that there
is the dreaded hormones and various spot/skin problems which seem to get
worse every day. I originally called this blog 'A New Start...',
but there didn't seem to be anything 'new' happening while I wrote
this, except for the fact that I feel like I need to hurry up and 'say
what I'm gonna to say'.
On
that note I feel that I should end here and do my best to prevent you
all from going to sleep as best as I can. Please comment your feedback
below and tell me what you think of my first post.
Thank you for reading - if anyone has got this far,
Minuette
xx