My thoughts...

Hello to everyone who may, or may not, be reading this. My name is Minuette and I am starting a blog - though you all can quite clearly see that!

 There may be many reasons for doing this, but, at the moment, they are all jumbled up in my head. I guess that is one of them. I sometimes feel as though all my thoughts are crammed inside my head and I just want to spill them out onto a page so that I can see them in front of me and so I can sort them out. This means that there will probably tons of boring rubbish on this page that no-one will ever read, but I hope that anyone who does read it will do their best to try to relate to me and try to understand what is going through my head. It also means that in several years time if/when I look back at this, I will think myself a total idiot and will wonder why I ever decided to write a blog in the first place.

Some people may be wondering why, if I wanted to write my feelings out, I didn't just start a diary. Well, my answer to that would be that I want people to able to read what I am thinking without actually knowing me. Hence the reason why no images of me will be posted here (not any time soon) and my blog name is not my real name. This way I feel that I can get into contact with people that don't know me without feeling like I am constantly being judged.

I find that one of the problems with me spilling my feelings to people that I see on a regular basis is that I can't tell what they are thinking. I have no idea whether they are sympathetic to me, feel sorry for me, think I'm a total idiot, or if they totally understand and feel the same way all the time, this means that if they do think I'm really weird, being around them is cinda awkward. This is often a problem as I'm a pretty self conscious person. Then there is the fact that everyone my age always seems to look better than me - all the time. I always feel that I am over-dressed or under-dressed. And on-top of that there is the dreaded hormones and various spot/skin problems which seem to get worse every day. I originally called this blog 'A New Start...', but there didn't seem to be anything 'new' happening while I wrote this, except for the fact that I feel like I need to hurry up and 'say what I'm gonna to say'.

On that note I feel that I should end here and do my best to prevent you all from going to sleep as best as I can. Please comment your feedback below and tell me what you think of my first post.

Thank you for reading - if anyone has got this far,

Minuette

xx